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Thine is the Kingdom (Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu, PG, Gen, Ensemble) - artistshipper
Thine is the Kingdom (Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu, PG, Gen, Ensemble)
I wrote a Melancholoy of Suzumiya Haruhi Fanfic. It's a surprise to me as well, since as late as last week I was on a BtVS kick. But the SOS-dan is all about spontaneity, neh?

I do have a Firefly piece in the pipeline, so those who were following my Buffy fics can relax, I has not been Eated by the Anime Monster, Nevar to be Seen Again.

For Thine is the Kingdom

A Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuutsu fanfic by Satori aka Artistshipper.

I don't really know what I expected, but this wasn't it. Standing here, in the SOS Brigade room -I don't think any of us thought of it as the Literature Club room, not after a day with Haruhi- just me, Koizumi, and Nagato. A month after, and the world's still here. School is in session; life goes on. If not for my memories, and even those seem ephemeral now, I wouldn't think anything was out of the order. But we, all three of us, know better. We're the last, the few, the chosen. The SOS Brigade, what's left of it. What's left of a dream, a wish, a fantasy.

Koizumi told us what we already knew, even without asking. But he was always the talker, the philosopher, and we wait for him to finish his discourse, taking comfort in the familiarity of the old ritual, in his melodious voice, which would deny that all is not right in the world. So we listen to his report of the slow, horrifying collapse of his Agency, as people forget, repress, dismiss away their former calling as a bad dream, smother it under the sheen of mundane life. We listen, appalled, yet unable to turn away, indeed, eager for him to go on, because once he is done it will be my turn and then Nagato's. None of us want to put it into words, to say it out loud, to admit the truth and surrender to reality.

Too soon, it is my time to speak. I haven't much to say. My Time Plain Destroid Device is non-functional. My very memories of my past/future/other-time-space are fragmented; A name here, without a face; a reference there, without anything to refer to. There has been no contact, no word from my colleagues. I am alone, and losing even the memory of being anyone other than Asahina Mikuru, Highschool Student. If I had another name, It is lost to me. I make that last admission in tears, real ones, not the act I put on for Kyon. Koizumi awkwardly puts an arm around my shoulder. It's not really comforting, but I'm glad for the human contact.

Nagato has even less to say than I had. She's lost her Link to the Integrated Data Thought Entity. Her ability to interface with local data has receded, and her processing speed is constrained. She estimates loss of all non-terrestrial function by the end of the week. There's a slight quaver in her voice, and I realize that she, too, is afraid.

The moment is a blur, but somehow we are all hugging, clinging to each other like shipwrecked sailors to driftwood. Then that instance is past and we are again standing apart, looking at each other, searching each other's faces for some speck of hope, some inspiration. But there's none of that left in this world. No dreams, no wishes, no magic. Suzumiya Haruhi took all that with her. Just like she took the one who we would have looked to before, in this situation. Kyon.

It's been a month, perhaps, since it happened; I'm not sure. The passage of time just doesn't seem to have any significance anymore. Ironic thought, for a time-traveler. But I've leant towards dark humors since that day. From Koizumi's too-lighthearted-to-really-be-calm musings, I'd expected Ragnarok, Armageddon, the sudden ending of it all. Instead, we found that the world staggered on, as we watched Things Fall Apart. We'd expected the loss of the extraordinary. For all our sorrows, we knew that ESPers, Time Travelers and Aliens had no place in this World Without End. But I soon realized that our loss was much greater.

It seemed, at first, so wrong to discover apocalyptic consequences over a pleasant cup of tea. But I've come to appreciate the little ironies; they're all that still add spice to this existence. I'm not boastful, but I know that I make very good tea. Yet that day, a week after it happened, I found that my tea was, for lack of any better word, plain. I could discern little flavor, meager texture, scant taste. That was the moment I noticed. The world wasn't dying in fire and brimstone, but it was dying. The very colors themselves seemed to be fading. The songs of the birds seemed to melt into monotonous tones. Everything exciting and vibrant was winding down. The very faces of the people around me seemed to meld into each other. Everything was decaying into entropy.

I'm holding Haruhi's Brigade Chief armband, the last bit of color in this fading world. It's cheery red proclaims a distant, happier era; like a slap in the face. But I hold on to it tightly nonetheless.

Koizumi seems to have found his philosophical voice again. "So," he sighs. He looks up and for a moment there's that old, enigmatic Koizumi half-smile. "This is how the world ends."

Yuki blinks, and for a moment there seems to be that light behind her eyes I only saw when she was programming. "This is how the world ends," She intones solemnly.

The reference finally occurs to me, and with a bittersweet tinge, I embrace this last defiant moment of sardonic surrender. "This is how the world ends."

Not with a bang, but a whimper.

Lame Attempts at Literary References:

Unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen.
-Ephesians 3:21 (King James Version)

The Hollow Men
-By T.S. Elliot

Things Fall Apart
-By Chinua Achebe

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Current Music: Dare you to move

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dreamoflight From: dreamoflight Date: April 25th, 2008 09:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wow, that gave me chills... It was horrible and really good at the same time-- horrible to read about the brigade falling apart like that but really well written. *thumbs up* I especially liked the last few lines.
artistshipper From: artistshipper Date: April 25th, 2008 10:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
A Review! Yay! First one I've gotten on Livejournal.

Glad you liked it. I was reading Ozymandias and thought of what would happen if Haruhi did end the world... Hollow Men fit much better than Ozymandias, but I may do something with that poem someday.
From: esbeedb Date: April 25th, 2008 11:14 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wow. Beautiful little fic you have here. I often muse about what they must have been doing, how they must have been feeling as they sat and waited for Kyon to save the world, but I never got around to doing something with it. I'm quite glad too, because I doubt it could come together so well as this. Wonderful look at Mikuru here as well. Very credible.

Hope you write more for this fandom! We don't have enough good fic lying around.
artistshipper From: artistshipper Date: April 25th, 2008 11:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
WAI! Esbee likes my fic! YAYAYAYAYAY!

Wanders off in a daze, singing the *Hare Hare Yukai*
thejenx From: thejenx Date: April 25th, 2008 11:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
First of all, you suck, I was honest-to-god in the middle of writing this exact same story from Koizumi's point of view. XD

Second of all, holy shit you did a way better job of it then I ever could have. I'm absolutley floored. Everyone's so in character, and the way you can describe the slow death of the world in all the small things makes it so powerful.... um... so, bottom line, you should write moar Haruhi fics. The end. Thank you.
artistshipper From: artistshipper Date: April 25th, 2008 11:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
Do you know how many times I have a great Fanfic idea and then I immediately find a fic by someone else on the same theme? Ugh Ive lost count, that's how many.

I'm really sorry, but I'm glad I won the race this time.

You should post C and D of your fanfic here on LJ, by the way. I really liked D.

Oh, And thank you so much for your kind words. *formal bow*
thejenx From: thejenx Date: April 26th, 2008 12:32 am (UTC) (Link)
o_o I wasn't aware that anyone was still reading that. I stopped posting it on LJ because I didn't want to keep spamming up the comm with fics no one wanted to read.

In any case, I'm glad you won the race too, it turned out really well. ...Nice icons too, btw. My inner Buffy fangirl approves.
artistshipper From: artistshipper Date: April 26th, 2008 02:07 am (UTC) (Link)
Speaking of Buffy, I was thinking of doing a BtVS/SHnY cross at some point. Dawn-centric, of course. Think that could work?

The original title of this piece was Fade to Black, which wasn't as good a tittle as Thine is the Kingdom, but now I'm thinking that Not Fade Away would make a good title.

Say, wanna remix this sometime?
thejenx From: thejenx Date: April 26th, 2008 05:36 am (UTC) (Link)
I actually haven't seen the later seasons yet, except one episode that my lit prof showed in class, so I wouldn't know if a Dawn-centric one would work... all I know is she's gorgeous and angsty. But I think that if you do write said crossover, it should include some Giles. If only because Giles + Koizumi.... I can just see them hitting it off ridiculously well. Probably much to the dismay of anyone who has to hear them talk. Or Nagato even, though I guess there wouldn't be much talking there.
ANYWAYS. What do you mean, wanna remix it?
artistshipper From: artistshipper Date: April 26th, 2008 06:08 am (UTC) (Link)
I'd think Nagato would have more in common with Willow. I was using Dawn because she's a Dimensional nexus of some sort... fits well with SHnY's reality-resetting.

I was just thinking that I wanna see your version of teh end of the world, the Itsuko-centric one. Would be interesting to see a more Philosophical response rather than the Ironic/Resigned tone I took.
thejenx From: thejenx Date: April 29th, 2008 04:09 am (UTC) (Link)
Nagato would have more in common with Willow, but Giles would be more likely to have anything resembling a conversation with her, I think. He seems slightly better at talking to strangers. But either would be pretty spectacular. =D

Anyways, I'll probably finish it sometime, assuming I haven't been devoured by some other fandom. It would probably not be much more philosophical than yours though- while Koizumi is a very philosophical character, my writing style doesn't lend itself well to long monologues. But hey, we'll see how it works out.
geek_among_men From: geek_among_men Date: April 26th, 2008 02:39 am (UTC) (Link)
Fantastic fic. Makes sense that without Haruhi, every thing would lose what made it special and different. *thumbs up on a job well done*
artistshipper From: artistshipper Date: April 26th, 2008 03:02 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! Glad you liked it.
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